ohhhh myyyy gooooooddddd i miss you!

omfg god ayesha damn you! i dunno y the fuck u had to go to pakistan..grrr.. but im really really missing you :( .. dude so much is going on and im gonna tell u ALL of it.
Ok first, next week monday- thursday im going to LA.. gonna miss farzan like HELL i seriously cant be away from him, ppl think omg ur crazy its ONLY a week. but after that i just have 3 weeks with him and i know for sure im gonna be so depressed, i cry about everytime i think of it. but yeh so i prepped myself for the 4 days and i was like OK ill b fine, ill come back and spend ALOT of time with him. but then my goes psycho on me.."we're going to sita's on saturday".. dude that adds 2 more days of being away from him and i seroiusly just burst into tears. i tried finding EVERY excuse to make her change her mind but seriously i never get my freedom with her and now i dont have the heart to tell farzan..he'll say "dont worry thats ok, have fun" but ill be dying inside, and i know he's just sayin all that stuff so i dont feel bad but he does get like upset.

2nd, My mom just told me yesterday that im not gonna get to take my car to merced for my first year of college. and i was depending on that so much, so i could visit him every weekend. its bs im SOOOO pissed, i was like ok dont talk to me until next year when i get my car. im sooo pissed.. he's my everything how will i be able to do it??i know i can still keep the relationship but i mean itll be sooooo hard on me, knowing me ill be crying 24/7 out of depression. and again i dont have the heart to tell him and upset him.

3rd, i miss you so much and i havent spend time with you since december i think. i want you back asap!! i love you!!

bye :(..write back